COVID

This COVID crap is really ruining a lot of things. My ex husband (Nick, Emily, and Jacob’s dad) will not let Jacob see me. He claims to be worried about sending Jacob with me to my house, but the whole thing is about control. 100%. He’s not worried about anything. He wants to hurt me. It’s always been about hurting me. I’ll spare you the gory details, but in the almost 23 years that I have known him, he’s always been this way. When someone is controlling and abusive, it’s scary to leave them. 

I love my kids. All of them. So much. I miss them every single day. 

All the heart emojis.

I’m not the type to gush about a significant other on social media, because, let’s be honest; I haven’t had a SO worth gushing over until this point. All I’ve ever been with are manipulative narcissists. They’d say “I love you”, but then call me names, hit me, or cheat on me. 

Not this guy. He’s amazing. He loves me, accepts me, and drops everything when I need a shoulder to cry on. He calls me beautiful like it’s my name. 

Coronavirus

I am so over this. I miss my kids. Obviously I’ve been missing Emily for years, but Jacob? His dad only lets me see him when he can control it. It’s stupid. We are BOTH his parents. He loves us both. We can both raise him. 

I love Jacob, Emily, and Nicholas more than I could ever express ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜❤️🧡💛💚💙💜